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I do, it's cause you're the first person to actually relate me

Makes sense, that's cool

Fr

Ya

your human, and apparently an alright one at that. that's all that is required

Interesting

I care

Why, master

Cuz we’re friends

Hm

I care about u

Thank you master
Care to elaborate

:)

Precisely why, master?

Cuz I like u (your one of my friends)

Hm.

yuh

why

because your a decent human being, everyone deserves love and to have someone that will listen yk

Ig...

you need to talk?

that's debatable
need is a strong word for anything

memechat?

sure

also is a question but do you want to talk is what i should fo said mb

I wouldn't mind

I care

Why

Cause
Why wouldn't I
We are friends
Aren't friends supposed to care about each other

You're right
They should
...
Thanks

and I enjoy our conversations
They keep me company cause idk how to talk to people irl

same
And yeah I can't talk irl either

You think the same way I do
It's f**king crazy
And I like talking to you because I like who you are, which is why I care for you
If you died I'd be really sad that you're gone bc you're like, insanely cool

Yeah it is super weird we are similar
Aww ty very much, I'm flattered

Wby, have you ever genuinely cared for anyone?

Never. Not one single time in my life, I have come to realize. That's mainly what I was thinking about when I posed this

I felt that tho

damnn

Fr

Figured, lol.
I don't think that should bother you much. Caring for other people benefits you zero, and scientifically/evolutionarily I don't think it has any benefits. Making people feel cared FOR is what's it's all about if you want something, but I don't think you actually have to feel it.

I guess
Though I do wonder if I'm missing out sometimes...

Yes, you are, and I wish you feel it once or twice in your life, but i think the benefits of not caring are worth missing out.

Perhaps
It would be interesting to experience it once
Say, love be it romantic or platonic
It just sounds so nice-
Being able to be close to somebody, and feel comfortable. Safe. I've never had that and probably never will
I will never get the warm fuzzy feeling that people always preach about, I will never feel the warmth of another in a vulnerable state where we both trust each other. This is... I don't know

And besides, I'm conflicted. Obviously it's both a blessing and a curse

But this goes against my core philosophy. Absurdism. Not exactly living with quality but with quantity despite meaningless yada yada etc. (I already ranted about meaninglessness) even Albert camus himself said that a man who lacks the ability to give love is just sad. There is a contradiction. My belief that we should live fully despite the meaninglessness of the universe, and technically my inability to do so. Upsetting.

Feeling comfortable and safe with someone WILL happen to you eventually I'm sure. You've felt safe or comfortable before, haven't you? Under a blanket or drinking hot chocolate or taking a hot shower?
And that warm fuzzy feeling is similar to the feeling of crying bc someone told you they were there for you.
The vulnerable thing is sad, I hope you do one day and I don't see a reason for you not to, because trust is something that builds up over time and it just hasn't happened to you yet that you've spent enough time with someone to start allowing yourself to feel vulnerable with them, but eventually it could. I don't think it's one of those feelings like happiness that block off for no reason.

I agree that it doesn't matter if we're all useless, but I think you can enjoy life without love. There's things like excitement and fear and stress and focus and the feeling in your stomach when the elevator goes down fast and when you stick your hand out the car window and then it rains on your face that you can feel and appreciate. And I guess it won't be living "fully" , but nobody loves fully because nobody can feel and do everything in just a lifetime.

I'm not so sure
I'm pretty sure I'm simply incapable at this point nothing more, nothing left. I don't even love platonically. Physically comfortable yes, but I can't recall a single moment in my life in which I have been mentally comfortable.
Perhaps it is sad, I do not know.
And I didn't get a warm fuzzy feeling when I cried for the first time in months. Crying isn't an emotional thing for me anymore, simply biological. I cry for no reason at all at times, idk, I consider that particular scenario a coincidence

You're right I suppose. Still don't know however

Don't say "at this point" like you're 69420 years old ok
Could definitely just be you haven't found the right people, even if there's been times you've wanted to love someone and couldn't.
Again, mental comfort around people happens over time, so that could also be normal.

The unemotional crying doesn't sound healthy though, idk. I'll ask google.

Google doesn't have what you're talking about, or maybe I can't phrase searches correctly.

Regardless, I think you're pregnant.

Lmao you're right
Not tryna sound edgy and shit

Could be, I'm more worried about my lack of platonic love at the moment
Did I tell you already about the one morbid thought I had relating to that?

About you being pregnant? I definitely am.
/J ik you aren't loll it's ok

Hm
No I don't think so?

Alr then
I recently realized that if every single person I know now and have ever known, (and this includes all my friends, family, parents, etc., I mean every single person.) Were to die horribly, painfully and tragically right now, I simply wouldn't care. I wouldn't shed a tear or feel a speck of remorse. And that certainly can't be healthy

Ok so
Yes that sounds unhealthy but if I think about WHY that'd be unhealthy the only reason I can come up with is because most other people aren't like that, and that's not a valid argument because then being gay would be unhealthy.
Right?

Have you ever missed someone? Not necessarily anything deep like caring or remorse or sadness, just basic "oh dang I wish they were here right now"/ feelings of WANT towards someone?

Wghere response 😔

I hadn't gone through my notifications yet lol sorry

😭

Good morning

Mornin c:
three hours of sleep again yippee

Lol I got 4
What were you doing till you fell asleep?

Mostly talking in memechats
Cementing my newer
Uh
Legacy

I guess. I have considered that perhaps it's unhealthy because such a lack of empathy and remorse for people makes it easier to hurt them without consequences. And the more you hurt others, ofc the more you distance yourself from it. And I already might as well be as far as Jupiter already

Not really. People have left in the past, I kinda just accepted it and moved on. Never cared enough

I think you're right, but do you WANT to hurt people?

Alright

Nah, I'm not quite a psychopath

I don't enjoy hurting people by any means, but I typically deep down do not give two shits If I do, which seems like a really stubborn and arrogant way to live, idk

Then it's fine, there's nothing to worry about in terms of it being unhealthy.

Mhm. But you've never wanted to hurt someone before?

Perhaps. Again, simply worried I'm missing out on important aspects of life

If I would be lying if I said I've NEVER wanted to hurt somebody. I certainly have in past situations. It's not common but you're right, it does happen

Right ):

Everyone does at some point lol, but if you don't care, what stopped you?

Damn that explains everything 🫃

Ikr

Tell me about the thoughts 👀

*thought

I hath done so

I'm cooler than you 😎

Yeah

Nothing actually. I think I have hurt people in the past
Maybe I just chalked it up to them being sensitive or something, but I just remembered a point in which I actually did gain satisfaction from a family members pain