another thing is that I have had crushes on both guys and girls, and while I tend to like girls a lot more, the more "uhhhhhh" thoughts for when I had crushes on guys were more intense😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
chat i'm starting to think that all the times I say that I am straight (after my mom had shamed me for being "bi" in 2023) was just internalized homophobia, and this crap has happened multiple times